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The Unstable Me

I can't sleep at night because of her, and can't talk to her about this because of me ego, It's not fair, It's not right She never calls..F*** I feel like a dog sometimes a bloody dog that wiggle it's tail and roam around random stranger people just so that they will like him and greet him with food, but this person is no stranger to me I have known her for more than 4 year and she's not perfect I know , But my heart thinks she's. I have tried a lot to stop my heart genuine efforts have been put , but all in vain. every time she uploads a new pic I am transformed from a man to dog again. it's pathetic , It's sad at the same time because I am not able to live happily because of it. I had told her what I felt and been turned down badly. And She is in fact so pretty that just not me, a lot of people desire her. but the shittiest part is she never disappoints anyone. That kills me burns me burnt me so many times ,so many. and this is not the shittiest part yet She has moved on in her life with a guy who is claimed to be a stud.  I have tried I too have a so called almost ready to be girlfriend but I know the sleeplessness is because of her and I am not able to do anything about it.

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