Unjustified true beliefs

Love: I don't understand love, I don't...I had it once or else I thought I had..at that time I was as crazy for her as a dog is meeting their master..I enjoyed every moment spent with her, few of my best jokes and dialogues in life were from that time..I was cretin this was the closest i have come to loving somebody..I was infatuated with her looks her eyes, her smile , her voice , everything and I ignored everything which can be displeasing about her. It didn't work out, next few years I spent finding someone which was the closest replica of hers..It didn't work out either. Meanwhile doing that I ignored those who were found of me, and i consider this as my biggest mistake, It's always been very difficult for me to move on, why I ask why should I move on from something so perfect, so pleasing. those were the moments I wished that the time should stop. but now those people who were my closest friends, few of the people I care about deeply have moved on and that i...

The day I will call my winning day is the day I'll have enough money to live up all my fantasies, travels, adventures and comparing to all my friends I am in no way lagging behind , either I'm at power or making higher bucks than them, secondly I have a beautiful, fun loving and smart girlfriend who loves me  and I have the most fun with her of my life, do the most romantic things with her. Oh how I wish this to be true. The days I can give parents what they always wanted, a world tour, enough money to start a school/ annat aasharam, to contribute to their dreams and make them really happy, when I'm doing something I love and making an impact in the society, I am famous for it and respected in the world. I am teaching my skills and learning things which give me peace. The day when people are looking up to me, than me looking up to them. and I have made a mark in this world.

Let's do it simply, and make it easy, Let's keep it real, And make it fun, coz to tell the truth, you're really crazy Because I want you by my side, for empty days and lonely nights, And I will say this every day, Till I convince you to stay I'm going to paint a picture with my guitar and make you see... This world is not, what it seems to be ...

I have got a pocket-full of sunshine, walking in the moonlight, thinking about the days that have past, I have been watching your great smile, laying on the green garden grass, when we were making funny things out of stars, (I have been playing my old guitar)**, (humming our goofy* crazy* songs*)**, Do you remember the crazy night we danced till morning light and* songs on which we danced to and the moment I stepped on your shoe, I have got a trunk full of old guitars, many unfinished rhymes about you, and songs about the days that have past, when I was watching your great smile, laying on the green garden grass, and we were making funny things out of stars, (Do you remember the funny story  smell of the morning glory)* (Coz I had never danced ever before)** (smiling you told me to follow your lead)** And I'm still waiting for a sign which will tell me, you're mine I know a long time since that have past but I'm still on that green garden...

Note- You thought, I would let an entire year go without writing a blog post. huh. Sorry you were wrong. In fact my next project will be re-writing all my previous work in the diary (hand written) to a digital text available for the whole world to see, (Yes, you guessed it right I'm going to upload all my feeling on this blog) (Because anyways nobody reads my arcane blog) ((but frankly this enigmatic nature of the blog makes it more fun for me, as I don't have to put any filters on my thinking, and relentlessly alleviate my deepest darkest desires and fantasies)) I am a Scientist, and all I do are experiments...be it physical, emotional or spiritual. I make hypothesis and challenge them with concrete data. So my last experiment of having a real authentic girl-friend was much more interesting than this one, but nevertheless. This is something I wanted to do for a long time too and finally I have managed to find some time to do it. So this is my GRE experiment. Everyday ne...