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Looking for my lost dream

I was really motivated in 2015... I had a vision, I had a dream to start a social enterprise to help the farmers of India. I had no money, fewer skills, less network. But high drive, that drive has helped me to do well, all my material success till date has been because of that singular dream, that vision.


Five years later, I have a bit more money, more skills, better network and recognition but somewhere along the way I have lost my drive. I don't know why I got exposed to more dimensions of life. Some areas in life, I am not comfortable with, I'm working for a product company to learn how a company works, to earn my living, to contribute in the society in a meaning full way. But is this the meaning I was looking for? I had a dream and I have lost it somewhere along the way.

My deepest desires nowadays are to do a PhD, but I'm slightly off the mark, I still want to give PhD a shot.

I need to save money for it. I am earning more money in private, I have a stable life, with a lot more time. I wanted that, I wanted fun. Some superficial desires to travel, to have a great body, to have a girlfriend and to explore new hobbies. These are all my priorities now.


My current plan is to get a PR first, Save 50k, have investments with stable returns, amazing body, skills in martial arts, $150k income, fame in the data science community. By 30 years of age. I want to stay in a sea-facing apartment in port-Melbourne. I want to get married.

At 30 I will go back to school to do my PhD. by 33 years I'll be a doctor. By 35 I'll write a book.


A leader in tech, who starts a social enterprise.

- Conscious living
- Self-Acceptance
- Self Responsibility
- Self Assertiveness
- Living purposely
- Personal Integrity

Family- Vacation, Health, Dreams, Marriage and Goals
Peace - Meditation & Yoga
Health - Right food, Exercise
Intellectual - Courses, reading books
Write humour stories/ blogs

Next two year is focused on the body!

Reading 15 enterpenureship books
- E myth
- Zero to one
- The one thing
- The lean startup
- The hard thing about hard think
- $100 startup
- Start with why
- 7 habits of highly effective people
- The innovator's dilemma
- Build to last
- The tool of titans
- The personal MBA
- The outliers
- The art of the start
- Founders at work


Books will reduce my cognitive bias
- Critical thinking

Meditating
Learning new skills


Books to read this year:
1.) How to win friends and influence people
2.) Gibral
3.) Critical thinking
4.) Men w/o women
5.) The monk who sold his Ferrari


My 3 months plan
- Give PTE
- Apply for PR
- 3 books
- 3 certifications on AWS, psychology & legal
- 54 kg muscle mass
- 1000 subscribers on  Youtube
- Krishiguru blogs


My 6 months plan
- Promotion
- Invest 300 in bitcoin
- Fitzroy course


My 9 months plan
- Perform somewhere

5-year plan - Data scientist
- living in an awesome flat
- Saved up for a house
- Porshe
-6 pack abs and amazing body

Go to a concert 
Acted in a play


Volunteering

Express me through songs-

Idiotic stuff - get a tattoo
Be part of the birdman event
Go to the german fest

Start a social enterprise
Become a manager in 2 years
Become start a company in 10 years
Buy a house in Melbourne
Start a family in 3 years



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